I've thought of this for quite some time. I've been in coma for about three months and I suddenly one day I just vanished. And is nowhere to be seen. She has to live with that she killed me, *my happy me. Now the situation is just getting worse, she even haunts me in my dreams at night. I have constant nightmares about her chasing me and I'm afraid IF she'll catch me she will kill me. Strange me, shoot me, stab me. Do whatever she can to take my life. This is a serious condition, both you and I knows that. Those words she said to me was so filled with hate I'll never forget it. Mum says I just gotta try to move on, it's not so easy when she comes and haunts me in my dreams and I'm constantly reminded of her. 24/7. All day, all night. I get so sick even looking at her and I get slightly panic if I know she'll be where I am. Today when the school started again I decided I would only pay attention to my schoolwork (not that I not do it) and don't care to take Him back or anything. As late as today I realized, he's not worth it. Both from him and others I've been not justified. They treated me with zero respect and tried to make fun of me. So that's why I feel so strong against these-who-shall-not-be-named. No matter how much I try, I can't get an end of it. I wish so bad I could take Him back but my insight of all this is that he is noisy and rude. I saw sides of him today that I've never seen before. (Sorry my words!) He was an asshole! So unlike the one I remembers. He has definitely changed so much since I was in love with him. But, I will fight these people, and I will finnaly get justice and victory. The fight is not over until I go off as a winner. They could just TRY to tear me down. Only try.
- JW
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