All 4 u

I can't help but wonder, is it so hard to love me? I just wanna have someone who I can trust and accepts me. That's one of the main things I miss in life, I see my friends with their boyfriends and just get so sad because I also want to have someone who loves you back and accepts you. I had once that kind of person, he was one of a kind, he still is, I'm just not physically attracted to him. But sure, he was kind of a boyfriend, he was as close as you can get without being a boyfriend. You get it..?
However, I miss all the love, where has it gone?

No matter how hard I try I still feel that sore and painful feeling in your throat and your chest. The tears are about to come through my eyes. Maybe some of you recognize this parctiular feeling, you get hard to breeth, very hard and you are ready to just give in. Through the towel in and go to Heaven. No, I'm not saying I wanna die, NO! But I'm just wanna go away for a couple of weeks or days when I feel like my life is ready to give in. It isn't easy being me. Especially not 2011.
I keep things to myself most times, no one will understand what crise I'm going through. Everytime someone yell at me, a little piece of me dies very slowly, and one day I'll fade out. Then I don't exist. Naturally I'm not a quiter but sometimes even the easiest things can almost break me. There's a fine line between those two things.

Sorry, I just had to take this little moment to be sad, and to just write whatever comes up in your head.
Please...comment <3
- JW